Oh God, I cannot even thank You enough for this!
My feelings of - of loss, of loneliness, of doubt, You've taken it all away! How can I repay you?
My prayer with You, which had been so unreal, unfaithful- had been so superficial, is resotred, because You showed me- through Your word which I could never have - or rather, would never have really read on my own or studied on my own -Jeremiah 6-8, words of such hopelessness and admonition, and given me new life!
I can talk to You again- You've saved me, You've saved me!
Oh- I haven't felt this way in- in longer than I can rremember. I can't even type, I'm shaking so much from excitement, and I'm crying ters of gratitude, which I haven't dne since I was saved the first time, 10 years ago. Dear God, How You - how amazing You are! I can't even express it! What, what can I do to worship You? You've saved me, You've returned me to the grace I turned away from when I went on in search of worldly pleasures, in search of nothing but pleasing my self.
And here, You have restored and renewed my love of You, love I thought was gone from my heart! I love You more now than ever before, Lord God!
And not only this, but You've answered my prayers for assurance of Your love for me, of the reality of my salvation! Doubts and troubles I have had for years have melted away now! How could I possible express what this means to me? Lord, let me serve You, now and forever more! I love You, I love You, I love You!
I pray, Lord God, that anyone reading this will find the answers to their own troubles, their own doubts, and that You may both Save and Renew all those in need of either, or both!
Dear Lord, I have read about renewal, and prayed for renewal, and You are Fithful, and have answered my prayer!
To any readers: I'm sorry that this post is not truly directed towrd you, as most of them are, but I cannot possible contain my joy! I pray that all of you, and everyone may know this joy, this hope, this LIFE and LOVE!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
SORRY!
Ok - yeah, this is bad. Sorry! I don't mean to keep these postings coming so late, so I am SO LEGITIMATELY SORRRY!
Anyway, I know that only two people have viewed so far (and thank you! :) ) but i do want to see what people have to say. MOstly about their Christian walk, but totally anything you want to say. Also, if anyone has something they want to talk about, OPEN FORUM!
So- of you have anything you want to say, have said, asked, or answered, I'll try my best. Please remember, though, that I'm just a college student, and I am BY NO MEANS saying I have all the answers! However, I'll make sure to get help if it's not something I think I can answer, and between all of us, I think this can work. :)
By the way- tangental (or, just completely random, but it does kinda go with the college mention!) note: Deep fried oreos RULE! Tailgating for me now = deep friend oreos! But please, don't make it a habit (and I'll try not to, as well), 'cause it's really only grease and sugar. But trust me- try it once (excepting of course if there's a medical need not to - though I think that I'm over-explainging this) because it tastes like funnel cake with an oreo creme center. which is awesome. infinitesimally so. yeah. (lol!)
Anyway, I know that only two people have viewed so far (and thank you! :) ) but i do want to see what people have to say. MOstly about their Christian walk, but totally anything you want to say. Also, if anyone has something they want to talk about, OPEN FORUM!
So- of you have anything you want to say, have said, asked, or answered, I'll try my best. Please remember, though, that I'm just a college student, and I am BY NO MEANS saying I have all the answers! However, I'll make sure to get help if it's not something I think I can answer, and between all of us, I think this can work. :)
By the way- tangental (or, just completely random, but it does kinda go with the college mention!) note: Deep fried oreos RULE! Tailgating for me now = deep friend oreos! But please, don't make it a habit (and I'll try not to, as well), 'cause it's really only grease and sugar. But trust me- try it once (excepting of course if there's a medical need not to - though I think that I'm over-explainging this) because it tastes like funnel cake with an oreo creme center. which is awesome. infinitesimally so. yeah. (lol!)
Friday, October 8, 2010
Ok - coming back.
I don't even really remember what all I included in my first post - sorry. However, I do know this: God loves me. I just had a small talk with Him about it. And trust me, He loves you, too.
You see, I've been having problems recently with my prayers, in that I haven't really been praying. I find it far too easy to just forget about Him being there, and sometimes to forget about Him entirely. I get too caught up in my "life" here. College apparently does that to me.
It's bad. And I know it. And God knows it. But... I think God also knows I'm trying. I'm probably never gonna be perfect, and I know that I'm not now. But God loves me, and in accepting that, and accepting His help, God will also save me.
It's hard to admit stuff like this, you know? And, honestly, I don't love God back half as much as he loves me. And we both know that, too. I love a lot in this world, I hope for and strive for a lot in this world. And then, when it's late at night and I've slowed down from everything, I remember that I should be striving for Him, and working for His kingdom, His glory. And I'll make a promise to do better, and then I'll forget later - as in, whenever I wake up.
But- today I was on www.cbn.com and I started talking to God again. I love Him, maybe not with everything, but I do love Him. And I thank Him for that. :)
You see, I've been having problems recently with my prayers, in that I haven't really been praying. I find it far too easy to just forget about Him being there, and sometimes to forget about Him entirely. I get too caught up in my "life" here. College apparently does that to me.
It's bad. And I know it. And God knows it. But... I think God also knows I'm trying. I'm probably never gonna be perfect, and I know that I'm not now. But God loves me, and in accepting that, and accepting His help, God will also save me.
It's hard to admit stuff like this, you know? And, honestly, I don't love God back half as much as he loves me. And we both know that, too. I love a lot in this world, I hope for and strive for a lot in this world. And then, when it's late at night and I've slowed down from everything, I remember that I should be striving for Him, and working for His kingdom, His glory. And I'll make a promise to do better, and then I'll forget later - as in, whenever I wake up.
But- today I was on www.cbn.com and I started talking to God again. I love Him, maybe not with everything, but I do love Him. And I thank Him for that. :)
Monday, October 4, 2010
First Off - New Day (Yes, even at 11:08 pm!)
Ok. So. This is new-ish for me. So - we'll hope that that's not a problem. :)
*By the way- those cutesy little faces will probably come up a lot. I just think it's kind of adorable. :D (see?)
Alright, so here's some background information: I'm an 18 year old college student [no- I'm not saying where. Sorry - I just have these weird moments of -
11:11 !! Make a wish!
- having these weird creeper moments of thinking of the worst-case-scenarios of what could happen if I do something, and saying where I am is definitely one of those things that sparks those things. If that makes sense.]. Ok - lost my place. Oh yeah - me. Sorry - I did warn you, though. Anyway. This will be about me, you, and God. I've been a Christian for 10 year or so now, and I've been having trouble recently. I know that that's not what people usually say after they tell you that they're a Christian - or, rather, that he/she is a Christian (I have grammar issues!) - but, I've been finding out that a lot of people I know in my church - and a few people I've never really met, but have talked to through alternative methods - have had similar problems to mine at about the same time in their lives, so I thought that it could be a good idea to put this up, and just kind of build up a rapport and a place to support each other.
Again - I'm not a perfect person, perfect Christian, perfect truster, perfect listener - I'm just not perfect. But, I don't claim to be, and I'm not trying to behave as though I am. I just... I really think that this would be good for all of us - to have "a close and harmonious relationship in which the people or groups concerned understand each other's feelings or ideas and communicate well" (the Mac dictionary's definition of rapport).
By the way - the reason that I finally did this today: I prayed with a prayer counselor today through the 700 Club. I recommend it if you need someone to pray for you, because the woman I talked to (whose name I unfortunately never got) helped me so much, and even said she had felt the same way at one point. The number is toll-free: 1-800-759-0700.
Anyway - I feel like this can help, and that God wants me to do it. So... here goes nothing! God bless you all, and - let's hope this works! :)
*By the way- those cutesy little faces will probably come up a lot. I just think it's kind of adorable. :D (see?)
Alright, so here's some background information: I'm an 18 year old college student [no- I'm not saying where. Sorry - I just have these weird moments of -
11:11 !! Make a wish!
- having these weird creeper moments of thinking of the worst-case-scenarios of what could happen if I do something, and saying where I am is definitely one of those things that sparks those things. If that makes sense.]. Ok - lost my place. Oh yeah - me. Sorry - I did warn you, though. Anyway. This will be about me, you, and God. I've been a Christian for 10 year or so now, and I've been having trouble recently. I know that that's not what people usually say after they tell you that they're a Christian - or, rather, that he/she is a Christian (I have grammar issues!) - but, I've been finding out that a lot of people I know in my church - and a few people I've never really met, but have talked to through alternative methods - have had similar problems to mine at about the same time in their lives, so I thought that it could be a good idea to put this up, and just kind of build up a rapport and a place to support each other.
Again - I'm not a perfect person, perfect Christian, perfect truster, perfect listener - I'm just not perfect. But, I don't claim to be, and I'm not trying to behave as though I am. I just... I really think that this would be good for all of us - to have "a close and harmonious relationship in which the people or groups concerned understand each other's feelings or ideas and communicate well" (the Mac dictionary's definition of rapport).
By the way - the reason that I finally did this today: I prayed with a prayer counselor today through the 700 Club. I recommend it if you need someone to pray for you, because the woman I talked to (whose name I unfortunately never got) helped me so much, and even said she had felt the same way at one point. The number is toll-free: 1-800-759-0700.
Anyway - I feel like this can help, and that God wants me to do it. So... here goes nothing! God bless you all, and - let's hope this works! :)
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